If there's one thing...

imma admit.. there's one thing that sucks about my personal life.

I cover up who i love by liking someone else, even when I don't like them that much.

You probably don't understand what that means,

it means.. When I love someone who is "out of my league" or "someone who is already in love" or even "someone who i'll never get".

I don't just give up and like. live on.

I continue to like them, but instead of showing it to them,

I seem to end up finding someone else to like so I won't have to face the troubles of telling her that ilher

It's sad - but it's the truth.

Sometimes. I just don't know who I actually like versus who I am using to cover who I like

I hate it so much, I'm beginning to hate my own emotions.

sighs.

FML.

I wish I can go back to the innocent childhood.

aite... peace out.

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One Month!

Hey y'all,
today is exactly one month since my blog has started! here's some stats for you:
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Total of 38 Posts,
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Vanilla Twilight

Suddenly went back to liking this song... it's worth telling you.

and yea - it's by Owl City.

"Vanilla Twilight" - Owl City

It's just a sad song that reminds me of so many happy times... sighs

I miss AST so much.

I miss everyone in Taichung, even if I've disliked them

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Imissyou.

okay..

so there's this girl that i really don't want to say this to.

I know she reads this - and i hope you know who i'm talking about.

I really miss you, we haven't talked that much lately, I know i told you some things that made you...... 

let's just say - think differently

but i really miss talking to you

you'd probably say yeaa we talk

but really, it's emotionless.

it's like. stating facts to each other.

i really want you back as a good friend

<3

I miss you

Just a side note:

For those of you who haven't seen the freshmen airband of 2011-2012 of TAS Spirit Week, I uploaded it to youtube, and it's here:

TADAH. now watch. :D
FRESHMEN FOR THE WIN
CLASS
OF
2015!

My Page Views.

I love how there is as much page views from Russia as United States.
I love how there is so many friends viewing it.
THANKS EVERYONE WHO VIEWS MY BLOG <3
Happy 1 month from opening of blog (even though it actually became public 7 days after this)

(Who the hell uses BeOS as operating system!?)

(Why would someone use Minimo when Mozilla Firefox itself is available?)

Views from Chile! haha yay :D

Hugo

so... following my sister's suggestion, I watched a movie today - Hugo.

It's actually a lot better than the trailer suggests, and I'm not even kidding.. cause watch this:

it doesn't even look that good.

but anyways, I actually find the story kind of touching despite the fact it's not that romantic or especially sad (yes, it's a lil sad - that i admit)

anyways - i'm just recommending you guys this movie now. I don't know what to say about it cause really, there isn't that much to say about it - so.. WATCH IT ;D

SIDE NOTE: THANKS TIFFANY FOR SUGGESTING <3

FML. ADULTS.

staying up at night just to write this.

sorry guys. my mom apparently is now pissed off at me for stupid stuff.

for all my life, i've never been living nicely with my dad.

we never got along or anything at all. 

so today

i called him over, and halfway here, i said nevermind.

i didn't realized he was still on his way here. so when he got here, i said that i said nevermind.

and so my mom got really pissed off about how i talk to my dad. 

how i lost my phone and how the police is searching for it

how i just can't speak like a "royal english man," but speak with these modern day abbreviations, slangs, and stuff.

how i can't even do math without listening to music. honestly. what's wrong with that?

I might as well as live her life.

FML.

sometimes. the adults don't understand how the children's world is actually a lot better than theirs to begin with.

sometimes. the adults don't understand how the children have a reason to be angry.

sometimes. the adults don't understand how the children thinks.

sometimes. the adults just need to try and understand.

but really, less than 0.00000001% of the adults actually bother to try.