Mentally Collapsing

Sometimes...I just don't give a damn about my life, just to make my friends happy. I do whatever it takes to keep them happy... but today. I tried to start a convo with a close friends, and all he said was fuck off. I didn't even do anything that caused that.. honestly.. wtf.. sometimes, the person giving the help is the person who needs help, and I really need someone to be able to do that.. the closest friends of mine are always offline, and when they are on, they don't stay on for long. Imissthem